Hi everyone.
My name is Shaheed. I am a 46 year old paraplegic. I never gambled before up until a year ago when I discovered the strange thrill of online gambling. Being wheelchair bound and immobile, what a great way to have some fun without physically leaving the house to a casino. At first , it was just fun. I played a few times and lost then decided Crazy time and dream cather on Evolution. I made a deposit then within an hour increased my balance 30 times. I dont play with big amounts. I remember thinking dam , this can help and made a withdrawal. That did not go well as an hour after that cancelled the request and boom, lost it all. I was gutted. It bothered me for some time. Then the next evening decided to play again to "see if I can win again". It did not. I made deposit after deposit and lost. Like I said , its not large amounts. The loss was about R4800 which is about 420dollars. I started becoming obssesed with Crazy time and found myself streaming sessions just too see , then have the urge to deposit. Made deposits occasionally , won , made withdrawals and felt good. I then decided to occupy my time with something else and took up a hobby. Soon the urge started again then played and lost , then a few nights ago, hit a huge multiplier which increased my balance 70times. I was thrilled and nervous at the same time.I guess that euphoria is common umongst gamblers. I should have cashed out right?....wrong. Made bigger bets and soon blew it all out. This bothered me. I would like to think that I am responsible. I know when not too use money that is destined for bills ect. I never once thought of doing this.
Is this becoming a problem? I limited access to the internet just to preven myself from playing agiain. I sometimes just think next time I wont be an idiot and will cash out, but that was a promise I made before. I find myself googling articles on huge wins and huge losses made by people. And sometimes fantacise about the possibilitty of making a huge win through gambling both online and the lottery. We hear about stories where it became an innocent pass time then soon became a problem and ruin lives. I have a relative who lost all his inheritance through gambling and I just dont want to end up like that.
My name is Shaheed. I am a 46 year old paraplegic. I never gambled before up until a year ago when I discovered the strange thrill of online gambling. Being wheelchair bound and immobile, what a great way to have some fun without physically leaving the house to a casino. At first , it was just fun. I played a few times and lost then decided Crazy time and dream cather on Evolution. I made a deposit then within an hour increased my balance 30 times. I dont play with big amounts. I remember thinking dam , this can help and made a withdrawal. That did not go well as an hour after that cancelled the request and boom, lost it all. I was gutted. It bothered me for some time. Then the next evening decided to play again to "see if I can win again". It did not. I made deposit after deposit and lost. Like I said , its not large amounts. The loss was about R4800 which is about 420dollars. I started becoming obssesed with Crazy time and found myself streaming sessions just too see , then have the urge to deposit. Made deposits occasionally , won , made withdrawals and felt good. I then decided to occupy my time with something else and took up a hobby. Soon the urge started again then played and lost , then a few nights ago, hit a huge multiplier which increased my balance 70times. I was thrilled and nervous at the same time.I guess that euphoria is common umongst gamblers. I should have cashed out right?....wrong. Made bigger bets and soon blew it all out. This bothered me. I would like to think that I am responsible. I know when not too use money that is destined for bills ect. I never once thought of doing this.
Is this becoming a problem? I limited access to the internet just to preven myself from playing agiain. I sometimes just think next time I wont be an idiot and will cash out, but that was a promise I made before. I find myself googling articles on huge wins and huge losses made by people. And sometimes fantacise about the possibilitty of making a huge win through gambling both online and the lottery. We hear about stories where it became an innocent pass time then soon became a problem and ruin lives. I have a relative who lost all his inheritance through gambling and I just dont want to end up like that.
