You are not alone, Craig Smith!

[Huggehugg]

Good afternoon everyone!

I just wanted to dedicate this post to a certain member of this forum. You know him as Craig Smith and he is one of the kindest guys I have had the chance to get to know in an online community. He is always extremely active and supportive on the forum threads, which I am honestly blown away by. The amount of love and dedication Craig got is a very rare commodity, especially in an online community like this. I can genuinely say that he on his own makes the atmosphere of this forum more friendly and more filled with love. One of the reasons why I started streaming in the first place was because I loved the interaction with the casino community, and people like Craig makes feelings like this possible.

"Life is not easy, and it never should be, but there are people who have it harder to cope with their everyday life than others."

As you guys may know, Craig is not having the best of times at this very moment which makes me devastated because I myself have had to observe depression very closely within my own family. I can't say that I personally know what depression does to your body and mind, but I do know what it can result in. What I can do is to tell you that there is always light at the end of the tunnel no matter how grim it is looking, you just have to get there! Depression ain't something that you should battle on your own so please remember that we are always here if you need someone to talk to. I also wanted to say that if you ever feel like we at CasinoGrounds can do anything for you, then you just have to ask! We would love to show our support and help a fellow member of our community out

Thank you @Craig smith for being an awesome human and may you overcome the obstacles in your life!

Also much cred to @BTGKinG who showed his support to Craig via E-mail!

 

[Nick]

"Be kind. For everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about."

Mental health issues can affect anyone, especially depression. It is rife in my family so i have first hand experience in seeing people who you know and love at their lowest.

Thinking of you Craig, stay strong mate.

 

[Renzo778]

[SIZE=12px]I do not know what it's all about. I do not speak English well. 
But I know Craig Smith is a very nice and nice person with me too! Be strong and feel a lot of happiness Craig Smith?[/SIZE]

 

[Craig smith]

@Huggehugg thankyou so much hugge for your kind words and support.

@Nick thankyou so much nick for your kind words and support.

@Renzo778 thankyou to you renzo for your kind words and support.

@BTGKinG a big thankyou to yourself mark for your words and support. I started to lift my head through our chats. Big help❤.

I want you all to no and any member that reads this is that i am fighting my depression now. I will not give in and its a day at a time.

Im not giving up something i have come to love in commenting on all the members wins. I really enjoy seeing you guys win.

@LetsGiveItASpin i really got some enjoyment out of kims youtube roullete video. First smile i have made in a while. 

Someday i will meet you guys and i will have beaten my depression.

Its good to no you are here if i need you.  I will be doing my best to continue commenting. Its 1 day at a time.

Love to all ❤. And thankyou.

Craig smith?.

 

[cabzla]

well i Think i know how craig is feeling Ive been there i am only 28 years old but i went experienced it. 

around 4 years ago Ive been at the Bottom of my life. i had Everything a realy Good Job alot of Friends went to the gym did alot of Social Stuff Things started to go downwards around 2 years After i moved out from my parents it was at First a slow Process going less To the Gym and more often in the casino. i went and did Party like there is no tomorrow getting myself wasted alot, than i did go less and less out with Friends stopped talking to them and my Family. Ive spent  2 Christmas 2 Birthdays  2 bew years Alone in my Flat i gained alot of weight from 90 kg to 155kg in less than 2 years i only went to work and home stuffing junkfood in me ignoring all my Family calls and Visits of my Friends After a while they stopped trying to contact me i started Gambling heavy First landbased than online Ive lost in that time at least 100k i Made 35k dept lost all my Savings my car my Value Stuff in my Flat and turned my Flat in a Nightmare and my landlord set me a Date to move out. i did Think alot about suicide in the year 2014 i stood up at night and went to the railroads and Thinking about ending it 

ob the 20 to 21 dec After my nightshift it all went down i drank alot because i could Not Sleep i cried and was angry at the same time because i destroyed and lost Everything i started Cutting myself just a lil than more and more to point i could Stick a Finger in my wrist i also did cut the big Blood vessel and lost alot of blood Luckly a Neighbor called a Friend of mine.  and this friend went straight to my door and Knocked and Stuff and than called the police because i did not Open the door they found my total drunken passed out on the floor in the Kitchen i went straight to the Hospital and than straight in a psych Facility where i spent 2 months and than 6 Months in a Special one in the pampas away from every Trouble and to clam myself down. Puh i hope its Read able i just Wanted to make it short. 

thats  3 years ago i am still fat but i am Happy with my Girlfriend and her son i am good with my Family and a few Friends i still have ups and Downs. i still have a Good paying Job  i enjoy my life ist still not easy all the time i have to Take anti depressiva but soon i do not have To Take them anymore. the only things missing is to completly set loose from gamble and get Back in Shape

anyway craig i realy like you i Think youre a Fantastic Person and i hope everything setlles down and you see the light at the end of the hole you can always pm someone here i Think if you need someone to talk 

 

[Craig smith]

well i Think i know how craig is feeling Ive been there i am only 28 years old but i went experienced it. 

around 4 years ago Ive been at the Bottom of my life. i had Everything a realy Good Job alot of Friends went to the gym did alot of Social Stuff Things started to go downwards around 2 years After i moved out from my parents it was at First a slow Process going less To the Gym and more often in the casino. i went and did Party like there is no tomorrow getting myself wasted alot, than i did go less and less out with Friends stopped talking to them and my Family. Ive spent  2 Christmas 2 Birthdays  2 bew years Alone in my Flat i gained alot of weight from 90 kg to 155kg in less than 2 years i only went to work and home stuffing junkfood in me ignoring all my Family calls and Visits of my Friends After a while they stopped trying to contact me i started Gambling heavy First landbased than online Ive lost in that time at least 100k i Made 35k dept lost all my Savings my car my Value Stuff in my Flat and turned my Flat in a Nightmare and my landlord set me a Date to move out. i did Think alot about suicide in the year 2014 i stood up at night and went to the railroads and Thinking about ending it 

ob the 20 to 21 dec After my nightshift it all went down i drank alot because i could Not Sleep i cried and was angry at the same time because i destroyed and lost Everything i started Cutting myself just a lil than more and more to point i could Stick a Finger in my wrist i also did cut the big Blood vessel and lost alot of blood Luckly a Neighbor called a Friend of mine.  and this friend went straight to my door and Knocked and Stuff and than called the police because i did not Open the door they found my total drunken passed out on the floor in the Kitchen i went straight to the Hospital and than straight in a psych Facility where i spent 2 months and than 6 Months in a Special one in the pampas away from every Trouble and to clam myself down. Puh i hope its Read able i just Wanted to make it short. 

thats  3 years ago i am still fat but i am Happy with my Girlfriend and her son i am good with my Family and a few Friends i still have ups and Downs. i still have a Good paying Job  i enjoy my life ist still not easy all the time i have to Take anti depressiva but soon i do not have To Take them anymore. the only things missing is to completly set loose from gamble and get Back in Shape

anyway craig i realy like you i Think youre a Fantastic Person and i hope everything setlles down and you see the light at the end of the hole you can always pm someone here i Think if you need someone to talk 

Hi cabzla, reading your back story I really feel for you having gone through all that. Its gut wrenching reading some of it but the reality is thats what this illness can do to people. 

Im starting my fight and im taking it a day at a time. I will come through it and i have the support of you guys here at casinogrounds.

I am ticking off my days now. Good days. But for me for 2 weeks i didnt want to do anything. Speak to anybody. Just shut down.

It was not until a member of casinogrounds got in touch with me i started to lift my head.

I suffer with chronic anxiety and to put depression ontop of that its like someone standing on my head constantly.

The thoughts of overdose. Opening up my wrists. Whats the point in living. No way out of the mental trap. All that is thare in the thoughts.

I have started to re engage with things and i am not prepared to give in to the way i feel and sacrifice what i love doing.

My social worker told me a while back i have really good core recovery in me.

Long term i will be back everyday commenting. Before this hit me i feel a responsibility to all the players to give them a nice comment on there wins. Thats just me and the way i am made. Quiet kind of man but articulate. Pleasant.

Commenting on players wins. I love seeing people win. But If i cant do it i will not do it. Depends how i am daily.

A day at a time cabzla and thats what im doing. The support here is amazing and members are just so kind. 

I hope to someday shake there hands/ have a coffee and try and say thankyou.

So yeah am battling it cabzla. Thankyou for your support and its comforting in a way that by reading and seeing what people say there is light at the end of the tunnel. Its just going to take time.

Thankyou cabzla.?.

Craig smith.

 

[LetsGiveItASpin]

Top man @Craig smith I'll always be here if you feel you need to talk or need help and that goes for everyone else as well.

Thanks for sharing your story @cabzla, it's heartbreaking and I'm very happy you were able to climb back

 

[steffi_beanstalk]

I never thought that there is such a nice and warm community "knowing" und supporting each other bc of (online-)gambling. 

That is amazing and I think it helps more people as you know.  

@Craig smith I wish you all the best making it through this dark time. I enjoy your postings very much, even if I'm not very active. 

 

[Craig smith]

I never thought that there is such a nice and warm community "knowing" und supporting each other bc of (online-)gambling. 

That is amazing and I think it helps more people as you know.  

@Craig smith I wish you all the best making it through this dark time. I enjoy your postings very much, even if I'm not very active. 

Thankyou steffi. The support from the community has been amazing. If they had not helped I would still be sitting doing nothing. I'm getting better little steps at a time. It's a day at a time fight. I will beat my depression. I'm up and battling it now. 

 

[cabzla]

Hi cabzla, reading your back story I really feel for you having gone through all that. Its gut wrenching reading some of it but the reality is thats what this illness can do to people. 

Im starting my fight and im taking it a day at a time. I will come through it and i have the support of you guys here at casinogrounds.

I am ticking off my days now. Good days. But for me for 2 weeks i didnt want to do anything. Speak to anybody. Just shut down.

It was not until a member of casinogrounds got in touch with me i started to lift my head.

I suffer with chronic anxiety and to put depression ontop of that its like someone standing on my head constantly.

The thoughts of overdose. Opening up my wrists. Whats the point in living. No way out of the mental trap. All that is thare in the thoughts.

I have started to re engage with things and i am not prepared to give in to the way i feel and sacrifice what i love doing.

My social worker told me a while back i have really good core recovery in me.

Long term i will be back everyday commenting. Before this hit me i feel a responsibility to all the players to give them a nice comment on there wins. Thats just me and the way i am made. Quiet kind of man but articulate. Pleasant.

Commenting on players wins. I love seeing people win. But If i cant do it i will not do it. Depends how i am daily.

A day at a time cabzla and thats what im doing. The support here is amazing and members are just so kind. 

I hope to someday shake there hands/ have a coffee and try and say thankyou.

So yeah am battling it cabzla. Thankyou for your support and its comforting in a way that by reading and seeing what people say there is light at the end of the tunnel. Its just going to take time.

Thankyou cabzla.?.

Craig smith.

thats Good to hear. the point is keep Walking even if you do 2 steps backward.

Hey Enjoy small things get something that keeps you busy like the awesome Job You so here in cg. itsa long breathtaking battle get at least 1 or 2 People You can open your heart to i still have from Time to time phonecalls with my Psychology. there will be a Time where you Can Enjoy life to the fullest i said to my gf and to myself that One Promise i try to Translate it. 

no matter how this Movie ends i will sit and Watch it no matter how  painful i will sit and Watch till the Movie ends than i will stand up and applaud. 

Never der your goals to high i did myself 1 Week goals and so on.

Sorry i Posted late i was busy in vacation in the neatherlands 

greetings 

cabzla 

 

[Craig smith]

@cabzla hello cabzla. It's nice to hear from you. I am on day 18 on my fight against depression.

I am staying active on CG. it gives me a focus. I am now at the stage I feel it's 2 steps forward and 1 back. Which is good. I feel I am getting better.

It's a slow process and I am aware to try and not relapse. Because I feel I have done good work getting me to day 18.

I have taken bits of help from members that have spoke to me and used those pieces of help to get to Whare I am.

I will use what you said about sitting down to watch this movie and no matter how painful it is I will stay the course. Get up at the end and applaude.

  The support is amazing from you guys here at casinogrounds. I will beat it cabzla my friend. The best I can say now is I am better. Getting there.. 

Thanks cabzla

Craig smith.