The gambling monster (Last post ever)

[Andy Fox]

I know I havent been as active on the forum as of latly mainly due to that I quit gambling for a good while I suceeded but for some reason I allways get drawn back like its the only fun in my life. And thats where it's dangerous I used to bet upwards 50€ a spin without any bonus after I had hit my biggest jackpot. Years later it was all gone but I kept gambling with the balance going up down till I came here to casino grounds at the start I did not realise how bad my gambling was and I ended up gambling everything away. From economicly independent til not being able to pay my bills. 

I'm not sad tough I'm actually happy even tough I wished I had never won the jackpot to start out with I don't regret it since I have a huge addiction or something moore to it I can't quit. 

Anyway I managed to stop fully a few months back with the help of some fellow gamblers here. And one that I talked to alot on skype with. 

After a good amount of time I started doing 10€-20€ deposits every weekend to almost allways loose but I betted small and won small. 

Then I hit nearly 2000x on a 2kr spin and I did a 50kr spin and got a bonus I won nearly 10K I withdrawed everything but with this win everything just came back.

I started playing reel rush on low bets the week after and did a 25kr spin and won 4K on strawberries a week ago. 

I now felt that feeling I had not felt in a long while and decided to withdraw almost everything beside 200kr and so I did with thoose 200kr I won another 4K with strawberries then I won again and again and the machine felt hotter than ever and I eneded up with a total of 25K that night.

I invested 10K into items I needed. But it was all on again I couldnt quit after making another 200kr deposit and did four 50kr spin at the last spin i got til the absolut last hit before the  bonus and it missed it tilted me so I did another 200kr deposit and did the same and guess what the same thing happens. Did another 200kr deposit this time not a single hit. and then I decided OK last 200kr before quitting this crap forever and did two 100kr spin and got the bonus. It was 7 deadspins and 1 bad hit wich payed roughly 330kr I played 50kr spins and on the last spin I hit the bonus again just as dead and hit the bonus before reaching 0kr and it was nearly 8 deadspinns again. And I felt that I had lost again and I had to try to get them back i had so much profit so it was okay. I was drinking some whiskey and just couldnt controll myself I told myself okay last deposit now but somehow I just automaticly deposited another 200kr and I was back into the gambling adiction just like that. 

I lost 15'000kr in deadspins with a few hits in between hitting the last stage just to miss with wilds and crap of the 25'000Kr in 1 night and the only reason I didn't loose 25K was because I had invested 10K already and my bank balance reached 0. 

I'm like I said not sad about it neither do I regret it I know I have a issue and I can't get rid of it not even with professional help so now with my own full will I'm quitting dead cold 100%. I mean I still have my 10K investments so I'm still profit from my last win. And I didn't gamble away any other money than money that came from the winnings.

I just wanted to say with this post that I failed. I got so much coments from the community and so much support and here I am again.

For me there's only 1 thing left to do now and that is to not return here to this forum and not look at the gambling streams again therefor I will probably not see you guys on the stream again. I'm sad we have to part ways like this I met quite alot of nice people under the years both on the streams and outside of them I gonna quit deadcold and cut all chords to anything that has to do with gambling.

Anyways Thanks everyone for this amazing time and I do wish you guys get to hit the biggest jackpot aswell just as I did.

As a side note I'm very happy because I'm soon starting a great new work career(I never tought I would be able to reach this far up in the world again) wich will help me get rid of all my debt since before very fast. Since theres not much left to pay. And I got a new house a car and most important Familly friends and someone that I love. 

Goodbye and Thanks Casino Grounds Community and Streamers~ <3 You will allways be in my heart! 

 

[LetsGiveItASpin]

So sorry to hear you got back to it Andy, I think you're making the correct choice and I believe that you are a strong enough person to stay away for now. I wish you all the best in life my friend <3

 

[David Labowsky]

2 steps forward one step back amigo, it's the walk of life.

Always loved your stories, thanks for sharing. Awesome to hear a new career is coming up! New house, new car, and you're in the drivers-seat. Have fun amigo!

GG WP.

 

[dollar_lejonkungen1]

Hi Andy,

First of all, I would like to thank you for sharing such a personal story. It proves that you really realized that you have gambling problems that you want to get rid of.

Of your text to judge, it really sounds like you want to accomplish this change, and there is only one expert in the world that can help yourself to succeed, and that expert is you. You know yourself the best, and you know what it takes to stop playing the casino.

If you feel you need help from someone. Take the help, it's the smartest thing you can do.

 I believe in you and all the decisions you make from now on will affect you in one way or another.

One more thing, never give up, you're loved, you're needed, you're valuable. There are many who like you. Never forget that. Much love  :heart:

 

[Andy Fox]

So sorry to hear you got back to it Andy, I think you're making the correct choice and I believe that you are a strong enough person to stay away for now. I wish you all the best in life my friend <3

Thank you very much friend. Now it might seem like a bad thing when I wrote this post but I'm very positive actually I'm up alot on gambling so it's so hard to quit haha because I allways feel like I just want to play a little because it is fun but hard to control hopefully I can achieve quitting fully while being on top.  I havent gambled since this post was made or been on the forum but I must admit I been checking the streams haha moore addicting then actual gambling.

 

[Andy Fox]

2 steps forward one step back amigo, it's the walk of life.

Always loved your stories, thanks for sharing. Awesome to hear a new career is coming up! New house, new car, and you're in the drivers-seat. Have fun amigo!

GG WP.

Nobody gets too far like that.  Haha Yeah thanks you, I have alot of things stored in life finally and I'm so much up on gambling for this period that managing to quit is a really big win. I havent played since pre this post. and it feels like I just wanna play. Crazy! Atleast I'm glad my addiction allways been gambling and not drugs

 

[Andy Fox]

Hi Andy,

First of all, I would like to thank you for sharing such a personal story. It proves that you really realized that you have gambling problems that you want to get rid of.

Of your text to judge, it really sounds like you want to accomplish this change, and there is only one expert in the world that can help yourself to succeed, and that expert is you. You know yourself the best, and you know what it takes to stop playing the casino.

If you feel you need help from someone. Take the help, it's the smartest thing you can do.

 I believe in you and all the decisions you make from now on will affect you in one way or another.

One more thing, never give up, you're loved, you're needed, you're valuable. There are many who like you. Never forget that. Much love  :heart:

Thank you I posted a few posts on here, I tried so many times to quit and never managed to fully. Only for periods and like you say only I can stop playing casino but it's like my body been acting on its own hard to explain.

I searched professional help wich almost killed me to be honest. Took so much time I had work and at the same time go to meetings early in the moorning and afternoon etc not working when you work all times on the day. 

But I think this is actually it I havent played for quite a while and having the support from this forum is the best there is to quit gambling all friendly people just helping you over the hardest parts.

And now with my new career I truly hit the jackpot once in a lifetime work and I will earn so much money no casino wins can come close to it so I hopefully will feel like now that it's not worth gambling.

And thank you that is some very kind words <3 I wish you and all the others here all the best of luck.