Hello. I’m Ashton also known as AshtonGTV on the streams.
I had a toxic abusive experience in 2019 which lead to me becoming depressed. I started gambling very quickly after and had a big win (400 from a 20 deposit on blackjack).
shortly after this I became addicted and quickly lost the 400 and better more and more each time trying to win back the money I had lost each time the stakes where higher to get the same rush feeling. Before I knew it I was losing money far quicker than I got it. Now 3 years on I’m down just over £3250-5000 and would do absolutely anything to get that money back.
I knew something was wrong with me as every time I lost I got more depressed and angry. I would make time outs but I would just make a new account at different casinos to get around it. I even found a way to bypass my banks gamble block (the things you do
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last week I self excluded myself from every casino site apart from one, just so I had more control however this morning I deposited some money and lost it all within minutes. I then self excluded on that site. Therefore I’ve technically self excluded from every uk brand making it impossible for me to join another casino for the time limit I set.
I regret doing the self exclusion since I can no longer gamble. But I know it’s for the best as I wish I never joined any site to do with gambling or stopped after my first day but being emotionally reckless at the time and after going through being abused and robbed I thought it was a smart way to earn money, but I was wrong.
today is the last day I will ever visit any gambling site for the better. Sadly I will also have to stop watching the streams so it doesn’t leave a influence.
I wish everyone here the best of luck and keep safe.
I had a toxic abusive experience in 2019 which lead to me becoming depressed. I started gambling very quickly after and had a big win (400 from a 20 deposit on blackjack).
shortly after this I became addicted and quickly lost the 400 and better more and more each time trying to win back the money I had lost each time the stakes where higher to get the same rush feeling. Before I knew it I was losing money far quicker than I got it. Now 3 years on I’m down just over £3250-5000 and would do absolutely anything to get that money back.
I knew something was wrong with me as every time I lost I got more depressed and angry. I would make time outs but I would just make a new account at different casinos to get around it. I even found a way to bypass my banks gamble block (the things you do
last week I self excluded myself from every casino site apart from one, just so I had more control however this morning I deposited some money and lost it all within minutes. I then self excluded on that site. Therefore I’ve technically self excluded from every uk brand making it impossible for me to join another casino for the time limit I set.
I regret doing the self exclusion since I can no longer gamble. But I know it’s for the best as I wish I never joined any site to do with gambling or stopped after my first day but being emotionally reckless at the time and after going through being abused and robbed I thought it was a smart way to earn money, but I was wrong.
today is the last day I will ever visit any gambling site for the better. Sadly I will also have to stop watching the streams so it doesn’t leave a influence.
I wish everyone here the best of luck and keep safe.