jappjimmyp
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Hello everyone,
After speaking to a few people in Kim's and Nick's streams, I have decided to post about my Gambling Addiction. Hopefully my story can persuade you or even just make you aware that you can really fall quickly into a horrible place.
The story is quite long, but if you stick with it and give it 5 minutes I feel it can really make you aware of the dangers of gambling.
I started gambling a tiny bit late in age, when I was about 22. A friend showed me the ins and outs of how to play a fruit machine (I wish so much he never showed me!). I instantly, and I mean INSTANTLY became addicted and used to spend all my money I earned as a postman on FOBT's. Fortunately my father caught me a few times and sat me down and taught me the evil ways of the FOBT!
I actually stopped gambling for about a year and things were pretty good, I had joined the navy, fit as a flea and had quite a bit money saved for a rainy day. I then got introduced to online football bets, which then turned into online blackjack and roulette which then turned to TURBO DEGEN JIMBO slots, blackjack, poker, roulette, horse racing, FUCKING snail racing is I could gambling.
My style of gambling is incredibly dangerous, for example;
Deposit £250, get balance to £500, withdraw £250 which means in my head I have £250 free to play with. 9/10 I'd lose and I'd repeat said bet in 3 days time, BUT! that 1/10 moment where I when 2k, 3k, 5k. I feel like a boss, BUZZING. Take screenshots, post it onto the forums, post it on live streams, show my friends etc.
This inevitably gets spent over the next few months from more gambling and I'm back feeling sorry for myself, blaming everyone but myself.
This went on for 5 YEARS, until last year. I just simply had enough. I told my family about my addiction. Believe me I was cacking my pants. Numerous things were running through my head. What if they think I'm an idiot? What if they laugh at how stupid it is? How angry are my family going to be? All these questions and so many more.
What I found was that yes, they were upset. Yes, they didn't understand how someone could be addicted to gambling. But I was so so so RELIEVED that I had finally told them. They too were in some way happy that I spoke out, this was a good step. A positive one! Until I hit my all time low!
Last year I had completed a 6 month tour of The Falklands Islands, a shit hole freezing country with nothing in it but sheep for 6 long horrible months. I went, mostly for the money, I was 3k in debt, 27 and had nothing to my name. Out there I was earning Just over 2.5k a month.
I came back after 6 months, booked a trip with my family for two weeks in Barbados. beautiful, and I had over 8k savings left in my account. I was extremely happy.
3 weeks later, I've been to pub, seen my mates and thought, ah! why not give Blackjack a try, I'll deposit £500, see how it goes. As I've had a few I gamble above my limits and do £75 bets. That £500 lasted 5 minuted.
Not phased, I deposit another £1000, this time betting £100 a go. That lasts about 45 minutes.
I'm pissed off now
FUCK IT, £1000 more, I still have around 6k in the bank. £250 hand - loss. Another £250 hand - loss. FUCK FUCKITY FUCK FUCK. £500 spin. YOU LOSE SIR.
Drunk, angry and only about an hour in I'm £2,500 down. For a man that earns £24,500 a year, it hurts.
Well this calls for one thing. I deposited £2,500 went on roulette, Downed the Morgans Spiced out the cupboard to sooth my pain and done 3 £500 spins. Nothing, I feel so sick, I'm sweating! time for the £1000 spin. I get something like £3,400 back happy days. Nope, I'm drunk and angry. I WANT MY MONEY BACK!
Cut to 4AM. I'm sleepy, angry, so angry infact I had thrown and broken my phone, my headphones were damaged and I had thrown and smashed a glass cup down my hallway. I was £5,000 down in ONE NIGHT.
That might not be a lot in some people's mind, but that for me is over 10% of my yearly wage spent in ONE NIGHT. I woke up the next morning and I was just sad, distraught in myself that I had worked so hard for 6 months, escaping my gambling problem, saving money, being a responsible adult! That was all gone. Everything gone.
Yes I still had 1k in the bank. But I had so many plans with that money and it was just gone.
Well fast forward to today, I've self excluded myself from every casino I have ever played on for 6 months. I'm going to meetings after work once a week with a therapist just to talk. They actually recommended me to do this after I mentioned Twitch. I haven't even thought about gambling for 3 weeks!
If you stuck around and read the whole think I hope you got some insight into how bad gambling can get and how bad mentally it is for your health. I have many more horrible stories in the relatively short years I have been a degen.
If you'd like to hear more stories, or would like to share your addiction stories with me on here I would seriously love to read it!
After speaking to a few people in Kim's and Nick's streams, I have decided to post about my Gambling Addiction. Hopefully my story can persuade you or even just make you aware that you can really fall quickly into a horrible place.
The story is quite long, but if you stick with it and give it 5 minutes I feel it can really make you aware of the dangers of gambling.
I started gambling a tiny bit late in age, when I was about 22. A friend showed me the ins and outs of how to play a fruit machine (I wish so much he never showed me!). I instantly, and I mean INSTANTLY became addicted and used to spend all my money I earned as a postman on FOBT's. Fortunately my father caught me a few times and sat me down and taught me the evil ways of the FOBT!
I actually stopped gambling for about a year and things were pretty good, I had joined the navy, fit as a flea and had quite a bit money saved for a rainy day. I then got introduced to online football bets, which then turned into online blackjack and roulette which then turned to TURBO DEGEN JIMBO slots, blackjack, poker, roulette, horse racing, FUCKING snail racing is I could gambling.
My style of gambling is incredibly dangerous, for example;
Deposit £250, get balance to £500, withdraw £250 which means in my head I have £250 free to play with. 9/10 I'd lose and I'd repeat said bet in 3 days time, BUT! that 1/10 moment where I when 2k, 3k, 5k. I feel like a boss, BUZZING. Take screenshots, post it onto the forums, post it on live streams, show my friends etc.
This inevitably gets spent over the next few months from more gambling and I'm back feeling sorry for myself, blaming everyone but myself.
This went on for 5 YEARS, until last year. I just simply had enough. I told my family about my addiction. Believe me I was cacking my pants. Numerous things were running through my head. What if they think I'm an idiot? What if they laugh at how stupid it is? How angry are my family going to be? All these questions and so many more.
What I found was that yes, they were upset. Yes, they didn't understand how someone could be addicted to gambling. But I was so so so RELIEVED that I had finally told them. They too were in some way happy that I spoke out, this was a good step. A positive one! Until I hit my all time low!
Last year I had completed a 6 month tour of The Falklands Islands, a shit hole freezing country with nothing in it but sheep for 6 long horrible months. I went, mostly for the money, I was 3k in debt, 27 and had nothing to my name. Out there I was earning Just over 2.5k a month.
I came back after 6 months, booked a trip with my family for two weeks in Barbados. beautiful, and I had over 8k savings left in my account. I was extremely happy.
3 weeks later, I've been to pub, seen my mates and thought, ah! why not give Blackjack a try, I'll deposit £500, see how it goes. As I've had a few I gamble above my limits and do £75 bets. That £500 lasted 5 minuted.
Not phased, I deposit another £1000, this time betting £100 a go. That lasts about 45 minutes.
I'm pissed off now
FUCK IT, £1000 more, I still have around 6k in the bank. £250 hand - loss. Another £250 hand - loss. FUCK FUCKITY FUCK FUCK. £500 spin. YOU LOSE SIR.
Drunk, angry and only about an hour in I'm £2,500 down. For a man that earns £24,500 a year, it hurts.
Well this calls for one thing. I deposited £2,500 went on roulette, Downed the Morgans Spiced out the cupboard to sooth my pain and done 3 £500 spins. Nothing, I feel so sick, I'm sweating! time for the £1000 spin. I get something like £3,400 back happy days. Nope, I'm drunk and angry. I WANT MY MONEY BACK!
Cut to 4AM. I'm sleepy, angry, so angry infact I had thrown and broken my phone, my headphones were damaged and I had thrown and smashed a glass cup down my hallway. I was £5,000 down in ONE NIGHT.
That might not be a lot in some people's mind, but that for me is over 10% of my yearly wage spent in ONE NIGHT. I woke up the next morning and I was just sad, distraught in myself that I had worked so hard for 6 months, escaping my gambling problem, saving money, being a responsible adult! That was all gone. Everything gone.
Yes I still had 1k in the bank. But I had so many plans with that money and it was just gone.
Well fast forward to today, I've self excluded myself from every casino I have ever played on for 6 months. I'm going to meetings after work once a week with a therapist just to talk. They actually recommended me to do this after I mentioned Twitch. I haven't even thought about gambling for 3 weeks!
If you stuck around and read the whole think I hope you got some insight into how bad gambling can get and how bad mentally it is for your health. I have many more horrible stories in the relatively short years I have been a degen.
If you'd like to hear more stories, or would like to share your addiction stories with me on here I would seriously love to read it!
