Firesoul86
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This isn't the first time I've done this...not even the tenth...
Got paid at 2am GMT. It's now about 11am, I have work in an hour and I haven't slept a wink and practically my entire wage is gone (except £30 that I withdrew when I had a sensible moment).
I've known for a long time I've had a gambling problem, but it's hit hard over the last few months. I had my biggest ever win a few months back on LeoVegas (around £5k). I went to withdraw £4k and was asked to verify my ID. My passport expired years ago and I never got it renewed so I stupidly decided to play on with the money and see if I could win more until I could get a new passport. Ended up doing ridiculous spins and losing the lot. Won £1.5k a few weeks later on another site...reversed the withdrawal and blew it all on roulette. A few weeks ago, I deposited money that I didn't have through Paypal on a third site. Managed to win it back and even made £120 profit...then redeposited everything and lost it all. I'm now in a financial hole at this point and working for nothing. I've taken to selling things in my house just to afford to live. I've completely hit rock bottom.
This morning is the final straw. Blew around £400. There was a point I had broke even and I didn't take the money and run. Feel utterly stupid that I've let it get this bad. I owe Paypal £565 and am paying off 3 separate payday loans that I took out because of my problem. It's my mother's birthday and I have nothing for her. It's my work mate's leaving do tonight and I now can't afford to go. I've completely isolated myself from all my friends. My family doesn't know how bad the problem is and I simply can't tell them no matter how much I want to. I'm just done with it.
I've self excluded and deleted accounts here and there over the past few weeks. I have 2 accounts left that I use and I've set small deposit limits on both for the mean time...they'll be deleted before my next wage comes in in 2 weeks time.
Not sure why I'm posting this to be honest...I think it's more for myself to read back than anything else, just to see how idiotic I've been. The next few months will be spent sorting my life out. I just can't go on like this anymore, it's killing me.
Got paid at 2am GMT. It's now about 11am, I have work in an hour and I haven't slept a wink and practically my entire wage is gone (except £30 that I withdrew when I had a sensible moment).
I've known for a long time I've had a gambling problem, but it's hit hard over the last few months. I had my biggest ever win a few months back on LeoVegas (around £5k). I went to withdraw £4k and was asked to verify my ID. My passport expired years ago and I never got it renewed so I stupidly decided to play on with the money and see if I could win more until I could get a new passport. Ended up doing ridiculous spins and losing the lot. Won £1.5k a few weeks later on another site...reversed the withdrawal and blew it all on roulette. A few weeks ago, I deposited money that I didn't have through Paypal on a third site. Managed to win it back and even made £120 profit...then redeposited everything and lost it all. I'm now in a financial hole at this point and working for nothing. I've taken to selling things in my house just to afford to live. I've completely hit rock bottom.
This morning is the final straw. Blew around £400. There was a point I had broke even and I didn't take the money and run. Feel utterly stupid that I've let it get this bad. I owe Paypal £565 and am paying off 3 separate payday loans that I took out because of my problem. It's my mother's birthday and I have nothing for her. It's my work mate's leaving do tonight and I now can't afford to go. I've completely isolated myself from all my friends. My family doesn't know how bad the problem is and I simply can't tell them no matter how much I want to. I'm just done with it.
I've self excluded and deleted accounts here and there over the past few weeks. I have 2 accounts left that I use and I've set small deposit limits on both for the mean time...they'll be deleted before my next wage comes in in 2 weeks time.
Not sure why I'm posting this to be honest...I think it's more for myself to read back than anything else, just to see how idiotic I've been. The next few months will be spent sorting my life out. I just can't go on like this anymore, it's killing me.
