Leaving CG and the streams

[Andy Fox]

This is my goodbye to CG and the streams.

I'm sad to say it but I can't deal with my gambling anymoore. I manage to pay the bills then gamble everything away. mont after month after month.

I tried almost every single help program out there I tried to stop fully I tried to lowroll. But allways gets thoose mega tilting moments at every slot I play.

My debt is beyond bad and my life has gone from very good to okay to shit and now i'm at the point where my life really has nothing of value anymoore. 

I'm leaving this site and the streams I won't be returning. I need to fully isolate myself from this madness called gambling and hopefully being able to sell some moore stuff just to get a little money back from the damaged I caused due to gambling.

I want to thank you all for your support and kind words. I had a fun roll but it's over now I'm far passed the end. 

Take good care all and thank you for all the entertaining streams you provided and the great community I got to be a part off. 

Kind Regards
Andy Fox
 

[crabscratch]

Good luck! yeah its probably best to avoid streams, forums and everything if you are going to quit 100%. 

 

 

[Huggehugg]

Was nice having you in the community. May all of your debts and problems be resolved. Wish you the best in life from the behalf of the whole community <3

[XDDDnet]

You're doing the right  thing. And you've already taken the biggest and most bravest step: admitting you have a gambling addiction!

I wish you the very best of luck. Stay strong and find something else to fill the void created by quitting gambling for good.

(I really wish you would check back and keep us updated in a few months with a quick reply. We need some good recovery stories in here to encourage those that are fighting the same battle as you are. But only do this if you feel like it, and wont get tempted to go back into gambling by just visiting the forums)

[Nicola]

Best of luck Andy, you have made the right choice.

Don't forget to reach out for help along the way

[Andy Fox]

Yes I can tell you how my past 5 years been in gambling.

if i deposit 5000kr every time we call total deposit A

For every big win I get a maximal of up to deposit A no matter betsize or so.

When I have deposited 50'000kr in a short while I could get like the hottest up to let say 5000x win on 5kr bet or up to 500x on 50kr bet.

And when I gambled thoose away I would in the end allways win thoose money I spent back but what I did was get a huge loss streak and then cancel my account therefor my whole deposit sum is locked on that casino and trust me I don't belive for shit that casino slots are random anymoore if so there would guaranteed be slot players actually being able to live on it for a long while. But there isnt I havent heard of anyone without a big win the past 2-3 months thats an active gambler thats on the plus side. Not counting live casino wich also can be easily manipulated or rigged to give the casinos a even bigger advantage over you and you would never be able to tell. One can't even call me paranoid because there are already quite a few casinos that's been caught cheating. Even in the old time the roulette tables could be rigged with battery packs in the middle of the weel legs with paper around them to minimize noise leak and then have screws wich acted as buttons totaly disguised and the only way one could tell one of theese tables were rigged was to tear them apart.

Also as of latly the slots starts to load in the middle of a spin or just lags and misses or goes completly dead depending on the slot.

So what I found out from my console is that it's refreshing your balance and collecting account information. Now why would a "random" slot be needing account information regarding the balance.

Well my biggest guess is that the slots actually calculate from your casino balance how much you spent and how much you withdrawed.

I can also say another patern that proves my theory:

On spacewars I hit premium symbols on 8kr bet it brings me up to 600kr.

Then when im on my last coins on a 16kr bet I get a premium symbol that brings me up to 600kr again.

Then im on my last coins once again and does a 24kr bet gets a premium symbol that brings me up to 700kr~

Then I almost spin it all away and I hit crystal wich brings me up to 500kr....

On this casino im +

On a casino im - Thoose would be alot bigger.

And no matter what slot I choose I would allways end up with the exact same statistic all based on the account how much +/- 0 I was.

And If I am to much on the + side all would just be complete and pure deadspinns. While on the - side I would hit the most amazing hits.

You can still hit good hits while on + but if you keep playing your total account would all end up around the 0.

Like if you think of the patterns it will allways be like this no matter what you do not sure live games affect this account balance. 

Also I every time I'm just having pure deadstreaks while being alot on the + side I can take any bonus and boom all of the slots are hot again say what? and on bonus yes then i get the most amazing bonus hits And as soon as im getting close to actually getting a withdrawal I loose it all. 

Now if this is while im negative on the total balance i most usually get a nice withdrawal. 

Even if the RTP is 99.9% I could guarantee that you would still be able to deadspinn away 5000kr with 20kr spinns with not a single hit that pays back moore than the spinn value.

This post is a little last rant from me but seriously the only times I actually lost money is when I had a long downstreak I usually allways recovered but as soon as I closed the account on that site thoose money where all of a sudden gone a big chunk.

Then I started next site and for every casino I closed my account on that chunk of money where gone.

While the casinos I kept playing on my bank account balance would allways just go up down with the total sum i deposited at that casino and sometime grow larger then just shrink. 

And after investigating every action of the slot machines what kind of datavalues they send receive on win spins and loss spins I can tell you this much things are not what they seem like.  
 

[braage9]

You are getting slotparanoid, thats good. Now you can quit! Slots are made that way, to get you hooked and so play for a lot more. Dont know how you mean they rigged the games, you have no evidence, as long the variance is very big on slots. Casinos most earn Money on players, thats way they want you to play all day long chasing wins. Start betting on horses they are problay not rigged!

[Andy Fox]

On 2017-06-02 at 9:09 AM, braage9 said:

You are getting slotparanoid, thats good. Now you can quit! Slots are made that way, to get you hooked and so play for a lot more. Dont know how you mean they rigged the games, you have no evidence, as long the variance is very big on slots. Casinos most earn Money on players, thats way they want you to play all day long chasing wins. Start betting on horses they are problay not rigged!

Yeah thats why they call it slotparanoid. 

Check in on every casino you ever gambled on for statistic I will guarantee you will be around the +/- 0 mark or they will tell you how much profit you made and etc etc etc.    and if you are on one side keep gambling and come back in a year with new statistic you will see what im talking about.

This is my ultimate proof of gambling is "rigged": Not a single person on this planet can live on only gambling slot machines. If it was random some people would be able to actually live of slots for a longer period of time without winning a jackpot I never heard of such a person have you? 

Look at casino roll list how some players are gambling so much like they are online 24h a day 365 days a year just pushing in spin after spin paying 5K€+ every  minut wich means they must be doing some serious high rolling. now how can they afford such huge stakes every single day. every single hour of the day when you check in are theese the people living of casinos or is it something else? Fake casino money, Casino test accounts? something else? 

Less and less casinos provide a link where you can change password on your account/or other ways to lock yourself out.

Every time you wanna cancel accounts you have to go trough the support and boom if you lie. they give you a great bonus offer. If you tell the truth they give you a bonus offer sometimes.

Sadly I realised once again that I can't leave casinos alone. I got money on my card and boom gambles away 50%. Hence why im tilting a bit. I feel so sick inside of deadspinning away 150€ in like 10 minuts with the biggest win 10% of my total deposits for they day. 

Once again I tried to close my account once again you have to talk with the support once again they arent online for many hours once again you cant change password or lock yourself out anyway. I actually threw my phone battery out the window.... now I cant use digital sign bank id to deposit and not use my phone.

I'm actually leaving this country pretty soon I fucked up so badly I need to start over fresh get away from this shit nothing helps me i'm not joking my brain is so broken and I don't even know why I gamble. It's not fun, it just ruins my day my week my month it ruins everything for me I allways feel sick from it. Wins make me feel like it doesnt matter I already lost too much then I loose and I get so sick and feels like it doesnt matter again and keeps depositing reversing and crap yet I keep playing.... I only do 2€ spins and I cant even tell you when I got over 50x the last time and thats from almost 10K€+ deposits doing only 2€ spinn. 

I got all the help I could but even if I managed to stop gambling I'm still fucked for the rest of my life so why does it even matter at this point. 

I legitematly dont have many choises left right now to get out of this mess so I feel like its over. I'm done. theres nothing left for me in life nothing fun I will never have money again and the anxiety has taken over my life so badly I just have to live another 60 years or so knowing I fucked up many many years ago and never have anything in life beside thoose bad memories. There so many aspects of what gone wrong due to my actions that no matter how much i try to repair I wont be able to this life-time. 

I'm signing of for the last time here won't be making any update posts I just can't deal with it. I hope to god that all theese posts I made have got some people with addiction to casinos got a kick to quit/stay away from casinos. 

Take care all!
 

[Andy Fox]

Just started a help program at:

Stodlinjen.se A swedish help program free of charge with english if needed.

The site give you a clear image over what you are gambling how much how long etc, how you are feeling what else you can do.

So hopefully this is it. Also excluded myself from 100% of the casinos right now. There are no moore to play at unless new one shows up. I really feel excited to quit casino forever. And the biggest diffrence about my last gambling session compared to earlier onces this time I managed to save 50% of my bank balance instead of gambling 100% away.

Goodbye and once again thank you all for the support troughout the times and yes I might got a bit of gambling paranoia but really if anyone had my downstreak with the same patterns over and over again on deposits and that mainly 1 out of 10 spins hit and usually pays back 0.1-1x the money of that spinn. 

And the last 100+ bonuses on diffrent games diffrent providers have not been over 25x not a single one. 

I hit crystals 5 times on spacewars on diffrent days all 5 was moore or less completly dead paying nothing and this was every time I raised I got premium symbols / bonuses and they all payed shit with triggered tilt mode badly. Then every deposit after that was just dead untill I had deposited around 1000kr and Boom I get a good win that gives me back 800.... then i gamble it away. 

So yes paranoid as hell haha

And the only time crystalls have payed latly have been when I have been on the negative side of the total balance on the casino. 

Then I win back almost exactly the ammount that brings me back to what I have deposited. 

I have done all the locomotive tests multiple times and I have max score on seeing patterns so yes thats how my brain work it reads patterns if something keeps repeating my brain notice it directly. Thats how I kept track over that its allways the same story no matter what casino same patterns repeating over and over again. And for every casino you exclude yourself you go minus everything you have deposited to that site and keeps moving up down on a negative balance on the other casino untill you self exclude from them. And boom you are down even further and so on the down streak just continues while if one keeps playing at the casinos sooner or later you will be back at what you spent. <--- this is a 100% fact and have happened on every single casino on the course of 10 years now of almost daily gambling. Trust me on that one. If something keeps repeating I can't call it random not if its on so many diffrent casinos and all the downstreaks are from actually self excluding after a great ammount of deadspinns and lost monies.

[DougPolk]

Good decision Andreas Räv, I hope you manage to stay away from the gambling sites. I know it can be hard once it has become a habit. Try to find a different hobby to do to fill the time you used to spend gambling.

[braage9]

I have also been a compulsive gambler With all the anixety at the end Money dident meen anything. Anyway I got better, but I had a badly treatet bipolar disorder. When my medicin was right and months away from gambling I finally could start living again. Now I can gamble small amounts sometimes and love to watch streamers. Anyway, send me a PM if you need some help =)

[Andy Fox]

On 2017-06-05 at 0:43 PM, DougPolk said:

Good decision Andreas Räv, I hope you manage to stay away from the gambling sites. I know it can be hard once it has become a habit. Try to find a different hobby to do to fill the time you used to spend gambling.

Thank you. Funny my name Andy Fox actually is residensing in a joke where I was called Andreas Räv since Andreas is my real name haha.  or ex name? who knows.

On 2017-06-05 at 11:44 PM, braage9 said:

I have also been a compulsive gambler With all the anixety at the end Money dident meen anything. Anyway I got better, but I had a badly treatet bipolar disorder. When my medicin was right and months away from gambling I finally could start living again. Now I can gamble small amounts sometimes and love to watch streamers. Anyway, send me a PM if you need some help =)

Thanks 4 days gamble free hadnt gambled for a while before thoose 4 days and at that session I managed to actually walk after loosing around 500kr wich was half of what I had left right there for the first time I didnt gamble it all away.  don't feel any need of gambling. For the first time I actually got money on my card and fridge full of food and no need to spend them well beside at repairing my car wich I havent been able to afford for almost a year now due to allways gambling everything away.  I also after walking closed my account.

I finally acepted my loss and that there are no moore ways to play casino since I need to find a new one register and deposit and if i win do all the work with sending in documentations so I won't go trough that. 

Not worth all the work and especially not now when I Finally do feel free and I can watch streams again without feeling that trigger in my brain going off. 

It's only 4 days so much can happen but I will return in a month with my journey. 

Every time I usually played casino i'm now out taking a walk seeing the world from a new perspective. 

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Casino-x was the last casino I played on. I join the site at diffrent times to find that the chat support is closed so i send them a mail saying that I wanted to close my account due to gambling issues and it had to be done now. 

Takes a while before I get a answer wich says:
YOU NEED TO VERIFY THAT YOU WANT TO CLOSE YOUR ACCOUNT! >:C (Might have made the capslock and the smiley face up in my head but anyway)
So I verify by replying whatever they wanted to know....
Takes a while then they say that they closed my account and ask why I want to close my account if im not satisfied etc I mean 5 lines aboce that it says that I want to close the account due to having gambling issues..... and if I want to reopen the account I just have to reply.  ._. 

This makes me a bit tired^   but I guess we are humans and we can all do wrong.