Professional Help - First person

[Andy Fox]

Ok so some people asked me to share how and what kind of help I was getting.

About my help: Since I live in sweden we have many social safety nets. So everyone can get help for free here.

Stage 1: In the end of 2016 I contacted my Kommun(=Muncipalities) and asked for help since I just gambled everything away I spent way over 100kr per spin and just did deposit after depostit and could play away moore money in a month than most people make in a year. My money started out as a I won a medium jackpot so I had money on a account. At the end I ran out of all thoose money and played from my account aswell. And I just couldnt stop.

Stage 2: I Got a phone call about to go to a meeting with a girl that worked for the kommun and we booked a meeting when and where we would meet and so I got myselg a time 2 weeks in the future.

Stage 3: I'm finally at my first meeting with this guy that works with drug/alcohol abusers and he talks about a road where I am now and where I would like to be in the future. And what kind of goals I wanna acomplish after the road.

This is how I said I wanted it to be:

Where I am now: A total gamble addict that plays away everything and moore

Where I wanna be: Gamble Free

Goals after the way: Play less and less and finally be free First goal was limit myself on all casinos.

This person said that I dont need to quit but maybe play less wich in my world sound a bit stupid since either you quit or you keep playing. As soon as you touch casino you cant stop as a gamble addict so it was one out of many "stupid" Advices. 

And this kept up week after week for 3 weeks.

I was working all the time night day so I had hard time making the meetings. But I could not stop playing

I quit going and quit that since it did not feel right for me. and I hadent been gambling for a few weeks at this stage.

One day I started Gambling again like a week ago and I was playing so much but had it under controll didnt play moore then I could afford and so on. But Last night/today I for example deposited 300 sek every time untill i played away 12000kr. 

I just had deadspinns the entire night but I kept depositing. And today at the morning I felt so sick with anxeity after how much I played away again So i finally got around to cancle my account without being forced to do it by my Vip managers, Hence Now my accounts are closed forever and was not exposed to a ton of bonuses and so on. I bet some casinos will be contacting me by phone very soon but im over it now.

Today I have tried login into my locked accounts like 20 times just by "habbit" and to play then realise its locked while im loggin in.

Wont open any new accounts since I closed on all big sited and theres no point for me to play on small sites since im addicted not stupid.  

So now I just have to push trough it and every time realise I can't login and think less and less of it.

SIDENOTE: Was contacted last week by my kommun that asked why I quit and they where worried I hadnt got the help I needed and turns out that guy that I quit from was not "educated on gambling issues" So it explained alot and they asked if i wanted real help but I had to turn it down due to working to much. 

So now I am oficially on my own again. but I finally feel free.  

[Andy Fox]

So today I received a call from a casino I won't name. Asking me why I quit my account at their casino.

I told them I was gamble addicted and wanted to stop. And directly they asked if it was lack of bonuses and asked me if I didn't want any sort of bonus.

The casino world is crazy sometimes. Most staff is understanding but some are just plain bloody wonky wankers!  

Today I realised how hard this struggle would be as I set on to close my casumo account had forgott i even played there. 

I tought to myself I make a final $20 deposit and if i win I withdraw and cancel the account when I've got my money or if i loose i cancel it directly.

Guess what? another 5 grand down the drain wont mention currency.... After being defeated by my own stupidity and gambling addiction I closed this account aswell.

From being pretty rich to nothing then playing away all my sallary month after month. It has gone way to far this time and I hope I can finally stop. Since I now have no moore opened accounts. 

For me money does not matter any moore and every time I win I just gamble it away because I feel like I never need any money.

But times changes fast I hope my story can get some other people to stay away.

And for other people in my situation I can just say Money is far from everything but it helps alot. 

I do not have much left in life but I keep struggling and have turned moore and moore to the music.

What triggered my gambling addiction was a huge win after that everything been going down hill just like a crazy person would talk as if the money where cursed so somehow I'm happy it's over.  It's a pretty crazy and somewhat unrealistic story of what have happened to me under the years since I won the big jackpot, almost movie worthy.  

The hardest part about being a gambler is that gamblers don't walk away. A gambler never stops being a gambler.

The sad part about this run is that I have had moore or less over 100 grand in euro cold streak with only a few small wins inbetween. The last years have been nothing but loss almost with 2016 being the worst year so far in my entire gambling career with a total of -76'000€ negative and 2017 did not start of much better with a total of -6200€. 

I wonder what life have to offer me in the future but I hope things will finally turn around and come my way again because living at the brink of existance all the time is not healty.  
 

[Beenji]

Feel free to name and shame the casino that didn't care about your addiction, if you tell them you have a gambling problem they should respect that. 

I'm by no means at all a professional at this, but it seems like you have a big problem, there must be some institution or something that can help you instead of the one that you've already tried?

Is there any way you could live without internet for a while? Cut your internet and buy an old phone so you're not able to play on your phone as well?
It's a start, but it really sounds like you need more help than that. The amount of money you've been gambling away in one year is horrible, you could buy a really nice car, travel the world or something with that amount of money. 
 

I know about some people here in Norway that's been getting help with their addiction, lawyers take complete control of their  bank accounts, pay all the necessary bills for you, and then give you just the amount of money that you need to survive. 

I dont know what more to say to you, but you definitely need some help man, you are destroying your life with this. 

Sorry if I'm a bit harsh, but it sounds like you don't realize how bad this is, please man, seek help before it gets even worse.

And please, dont feel any shame when asking for help, everyone has their problems in life, and this is yours. Good luck on your journey to a gambling free life man. 

[wlf666]

Andy dude...this is the placa where you name the casino that calls you and ask you if you want a bonus when you clearly answered i got a problem. these fucking donkeys should be named . its inpropriate and they should know better. so please post there name so kim and the guys could make shure the casino at least investigate the seller  that mayby had missunderstood his purpose.....or blacklist the casino big time. this casino is not doing there business in a proper way. good luck sir with your handling of your problems and remember you are not alone, and weve all beeen there ,the temptation is so big and the felling is so great but the losses are so big...take care bro

/wlf666

[Beenji]

I've never played with the amount of money that you've been gambling away, but if I lose a lot it just makes me hate slots so I end up staying away for a longer period, dont you ever get tired of losing so much? What's the point of even having a job if you're just gonna blow all the money you make on gambling...

Do you live with someone?

I red about this guy that had a gambling issue, he ordered a new bank card, when he finally got it he got he's girlfriend to look at the card and remember the 3 digit security code, he then made her scrap the code of the card, so it's basically impossible for him to deposit money as he's girlfriend is the only one that actually know what the code is, if he got the gambling rush he couldn't do anything about it as it wasn't possible for him to deposit anything. 
He could go to a shop and buy a paysafecard and deposit that way, but he'd normally get rid of the "rush" within the time it took him to get to the store and buy it. 

 

[Andy Fox]

2 hours ago, wlf666 said:

Andy dude...this is the placa where you name the casino that calls you and ask you if you want a bonus when you clearly answered i got a problem. these fucking donkeys should be named . its inpropriate and they should know better. so please post there name so kim and the guys could make shure the casino at least investigate the seller  that mayby had missunderstood his purpose.....or blacklist the casino big time. this casino is not doing there business in a proper way. good luck sir with your handling of your problems and remember you are not alone, and weve all beeen there ,the temptation is so big and the felling is so great but the losses are so big...take care bro

/wlf666

Still unsure about the naming part as I have a friend who work higher up at that casino, And have been talking to him today about the situation and I will be receiving a personal sorry message from the VIP manager that contacted me, (atleast think it was a vip manager)

32 minutes ago, Beenji said:

I've never played with the amount of money that you've been gambling away, but if I lose a lot it just makes me hate slots so I end up staying away for a longer period, dont you ever get tired of losing so much? What's the point of even having a job if you're just gonna blow all the money you make on gambling...

Do you live with someone?

I red about this guy that had a gambling issue, he ordered a new bank card, when he finally got it he got he's girlfriend to look at the card and remember the 3 digit security code, he then made her scrap the code of the card, so it's basically impossible for him to deposit money as he's girlfriend is the only one that actually know what the code is, if he got the gambling rush he couldn't do anything about it as it wasn't possible for him to deposit anything. 
He could go to a shop and buy a paysafecard and deposit that way, but he'd normally get rid of the "rush" within the time it took him to get to the store and buy it. 

 

I allways felt like money never mattered and even when I won I gambled it away. I could go and just stop there whenever I wanted so never tought of me as a gamble addicted moore like self destructive like money didnt matter anymoore if i loose I loose. 

When i started to come to the reality was when the real gambling addiction kicked in. 

I had controll up till the point where the cold streak just wouldnt stop never in my entire gambling career i had a cold streak of over a year and that was sick. 

I remember my favorit casino streamer(If you followed his stream you know who it is )  He had a summer of cold streak and you could see how much it teared him up and how sick he felt about it wanting to just quit right there, Lucky his cold streak ended mine just kept going.  But what would let say a casino streamer do if the could streak just continued. And every deposit whent directly to 0 in almost 100% deadspinns. 

I really dont wanna enclosure my personal life but I was, I had a house I had a brand new car, I had a top job, I was about to get married, I had everything in life. Then my best friend died, gambling took over everything and i lost it all piece by piece hence why I think theres moore to my issue then just being addicted my issue grounds in that I don't really care about life anymoore. 

But don't mistake me I love life and would never end it. But I really wish there was somthing moore in it.  

[Andy Fox]

So today I wrote a new song, music is what I do next to gambling. and now when I quit gambling I guess music is it   its very rough as this is the first demo I made of it. 

My lyrics might seem dark or depressing but I been trough hell and back so my songs are really just ways for me to express myself. 

Might be released later this year or late 2018 as part of the studio Album: Helvetets Hjältar

Enjoy a bit diffrent from many other bands out there today this is my first solo demo as I was writing this song a mix of grunge and heavy metal will be the end result you guys will be the first ever to hear this song.

https://soundcloud.com/user-474683509/goodbye-cruel-world-first-demo-acoustic

In the information box you can press show moore to see the lyrics and read them as I sing them wich I recommend.

 

[Casinomon]

Andy andy, 

It always gets me, reading these stories. I am a bit late with commenting, so I´m just gonna drop a quick one for you in case you are still struggling with the gambling: 

No matter what happens in your life, there will always be moments where you just want to escape somewhere. Slots are doing the magic just great, focusing your mind on something completely different. But you my friend have a better option, the music. I am sure you are aware of this already, and that it´s not easy to choose the guitar over the slots always, but keep it in mind and think about it a second time whenever the slots are calling you back. You got talent and it´s easy to see that you most have a greater love for music than anything that could go on a computer screen. 

Can´t leave the slots and need a hobby? Make some fun songs about your favourite games and streamers, or even about the stupid decisions and way of thinking we usually find ourselves having while tilting. 

And hey, if you got rid of gambling completely by now, I couldn´t be happier for you. Maybe you got some tip for others that worked for you? 

I hope you are still going strong and wish you all the best!

[Andy Fox]

18 hours ago, Casinomon said:

Andy andy, 

It always gets me, reading these stories. I am a bit late with commenting, so I´m just gonna drop a quick one for you in case you are still struggling with the gambling: 

No matter what happens in your life, there will always be moments where you just want to escape somewhere. Slots are doing the magic just great, focusing your mind on something completely different. But you my friend have a better option, the music. I am sure you are aware of this already, and that it´s not easy to choose the guitar over the slots always, but keep it in mind and think about it a second time whenever the slots are calling you back. You got talent and it´s easy to see that you most have a greater love for music than anything that could go on a computer screen. 

Can´t leave the slots and need a hobby? Make some fun songs about your favourite games and streamers, or even about the stupid decisions and way of thinking we usually find ourselves having while tilting. 

And hey, if you got rid of gambling completely by now, I couldn´t be happier for you. Maybe you got some tip for others that worked for you? 

I hope you are still going strong and wish you all the best!

Thank you dude, No worries. I am actually very happy how the comunity backs me up and supports me in this hard times. Like this it means alot to me and shows another good side of the gambling comunity.

The slots was for me a way to escape the sad and booring reality, I once had it all now I moore or less got nothing. I'm rebuilding my life but after everything that happened im not sure I will never get on track again in life but for once I actually feel like I have something to fight for now. 

Its hard but its been over 1 month now since I last gambled. Every time I open a browser I still enter casino name in the browser and tries to login realising i blocked myself and wonder why I even tried to log in like the brain moves in auto pilot.  really dangerous when you been playing for so many years and made it a habbit and then stops the habbit will continue. 

I gonna add up a new thread in the matter of how to actually break the habbit for others to seek comfort and have a clear help instead of going trough this whole thread.  

And thank you same goes to you!

[Beenji]

What about telling every casino out there about your gambling problem? They will close your account for good and you will never be able to open it again. 

[Andy Fox]

9 hours ago, Beenji said:

What about telling every casino out there about your gambling problem? They will close your account for good and you will never be able to open it again. 

Created another thread about the subject. How to break the addiction and habbit where i mention this.

Yes usually works well. But not when you are a really important VIP for them. Since you feed them with so much money alone. Most casinos are really professional about it but some are not. 

[ItsCanaye]

Much respect to you Andy! I regularly close my accounts down when i see a negative path. Always trying to be strict in deposit limits.
I want to do as you, and just close all of my accounts.

[Andy Fox]

5 minutes ago, ItsCanaye said:

Much respect to you Andy! I regularly close my accounts down when i see a negative path. Always trying to be strict in deposit limits.
I want to do as you, and just close all of my accounts.

Thank you, I played casino for the first time in very long last night at a friends house, It was a good test but I really feel nothing for casino anymoore I don't feel the need to play or deposit. 

Now I can guarantee if i was in charge of the deposits last night I would probably be doing the same thing as before and just play it all away.

So the only thing you really can do is to close all accounts down if you have a problem. 

You will never really be free from the behaviour and you will keep lying to yourself.